I wish to tell you

How dreadful the eyes seem

When they fall upon me

How tormented my heart feels

When it has to race against my fears

I tap hundred beats

Rehearse a thousand times

But when it comes to speaking

I fail to speak or mime

I wish to tell you

How helpless I feel

When I can’t breathe

or control my tears

I scream to my fears

Go away! Go away!

I wish to tell you

How scared I am of them right now

As they barge in my life without

my permission

How I wish them to end my existence

and culminate this cycle of pain forever.